You are the most important one

Maybe I am shy or maybe I am just a idiot in love. But it doesn't mean not loving you for certain. 

I never tell you how I miss you when you are not around me .  When you call me, I am supposed to express my love, but I can't... I don't know how to say it out. 

We  used to joke each other. It seems I am good at that. But now, we are lovers, I think I should change the way how we got along and I should be like your girl friend.  I can feel your changing. I can feel your love. But I... I am sorry for concealing my feelings. Today, I felt your worry over the phone. The original idea of my talking was making you know I miss you so much these days. But in the end, it beame a joke. What the hell was I thinking?! Sometimes, I even hate myself...

And... I admit I watch other boys in the school, but if you are stay with me, I am sure they will only be passerbys. You are the only one whom I really fell in love with. 

 I will try my best to open my heart next time. Any bad factor which will affect our sentiment must be stopped. I know I can't lose you... Please trust me I really love you and forgive my poor expression...